Thanks for your wise and thoughtful post.

I love that Buddha quote as well.

You’re in luck, because in my book I talk about what I went through during my childhood (it wasn’t actually just between Nick’s and Brown—it was sadly from birth until I left for Brown, excluding my time at Bollettieri’, since I wasn’t living with my family of origin).

But from the darkness came the light.

From my adversity I learned to be who I am today.

And that I can handle/deal with ANYTHING.

I too pretended everything was just fine during my childhood, because my survival depended on it.

But once I was “out” of those horrible surroundings, and after my joyful years at Brown, the **** hit the fan and I faced it all in my early twenties—a good thing, albeit a painful one.

So stay tuned—my book seems to be writing itself very quickly, and will be out soon.

I think we’ll self-publish it, unless any readers out there know the best publisher ever who won’t edit the you-know-what out of it.

Namaste!

Taylor

By “walking out into the Matrix” I mean walking out into the “world”–the “mainstream world”–which feels very different energetically than walking into a Prana Power Yoga Center or The Prana Cafe’, which have magetized people who are by the very fact that they are seeking yoga, transformation, healthy food, etc. are on a path of tranformation, open-mindedness and growth.

We magnetize the best people ever!

We are constantly amazed and grateful.

Clearing your energy and closing your chakras are not something that can be described adequately in the written word. I’d have to show you live, which I do in my PranaSupermom Consulting and in our Prana Teacher Training.

Have the best day ever!

Namaste!

Taylor

I emailed you last night.

Have the best day ever!

Namaste!

Taylor

I’m sorry that your work colleagues were so disrespectful of the boundary that you repeatedly set.

They clearly didn’t hear you, and that’s annoying at best.

But The Universe did.

So continue on your path, my Warrior Sister, and continue setting the boundaries that feel right to you; and soon, those IM’s will stop coming in.

And supportive IM’s will–from someone more on your vibrational level.

I’m sending much love, light, and support to you now and always.

Hang in there Sister–one breath at at time.

Namaste,

Taylor

I’m not sorry – I think healthy debate only enhanced the conversation and maybe clarified some of Taylor’s wisdom and learnings.

It’s still a struggle, but I am trying to get to a place of clarity and have some “do nots” of my own to relay. I am in Washington DC for work – was in the office at 7am to prepare for an event tomorrow. I received an IM at 4pm from the team in town for the event, “we are going for drinks and dinner tonight, you need to join us.”

Without going into detail, I had a bad experience going “for a drink” with a company executive a few years ago that caused me much angst and had a hugely negative impact on my marriage. Do not want to go that route, or close to it, again.

So okay, no I don’t need to join you. I worked from 7am – 5pm, am away from my daughter and finally had the chance to hit a yoga class in DC. So, I respectfully declined the dinner invitation. I am no sooner back in the hotel after a much cherished blissful practice and logged on to check email, when I receive an IM “we are still here at xx restaurant, you better join us for drinks.” I don’t like to drink. I respond, “no thanks, early day tomorrow.” Response: “if you’re a member of the team, you will meet us for drinks at 9pm.” Again, I declined via IM, only to receive several calls to my cell phone before I shut it off.

So, what is my point to this anecdote? Hmmm, not totally sure. I think my point is that fundamentally I am jealous of Taylor and Phillippe’s ability to control their lives … I am trying to assert more control over my life in terms of making healthy decisions about what are right for me. But what I am learning is that I have “ten things I will never do again”. It’s t a struggle but I am trying to stay true.

My y three year old daughter, by the way, the night before I left selected a rack of ribs from Whole Foods (despite the fact that we stick to the perimeter and she loves the produce aisle the best) and said “maybe if we make “WIBS”, Daddy will come back.” What I thought was a heartfelt cry, when relayed to “daddy”, received a “hmm, cute, too busy to see her for a few months”. Trying REALLY hard to be positive.

I hear you. If only you knew how well I do hear you, and why.

I could cite many, many examples of times when I’ve questioned deliberate creation/the Law of Attraction.

Again, Abraham has a great, thorough, and convincing answer to your example, and many others like it, that to me are very difficult to reconcile mentally and emotionally. I’ve heard her describe this answer both on her CD’s and in her live seminars that I’ve attended over the years.

But for the life of me, I cannot replicate them here. (I believe she says something like in instances such as the tragedy of your daughter’s classmate, this little 3 year old angel has “done her/his work” in this lifetime on this planet–that which she/he set out to do upon birth (I know, I know–hard to swallow) and that only her Spirit knows what that work is and how long it will take/has taken, and it’s not for us “in our limited capacity and knowledge” to judge).

But again, this isn’t a great paraphrase of her theory on this difficult and painful topic. For some reason, it just doesn’t flow easily from my mind and Spirit, as most other things do…probably because it’s too “close to home” for me with regards to my past.

I therefore encourage you to explore Abraham-hicks more (if it feels right) and see for yourself how she answers this difficult and painful question.

I am by no means the end-all be all expert on Deliberate Creation in instances such as the one you describe, and my childhood was so horrific that if I explained to you the details, all of you Super-people would be shocked and wonder if I’d lost my mind to say that I believe my Spirit created it for a reason (in many other posts and articles I’ve explained why I don’t describe details about the darkness in my past).

For this reason and because I too still feel devastated when I hear of instances such as your daughter’s classmate and/or Anonymous’ horrendous experience with her father, and so on, I would prefer that you research it on your own as opposed to taking my word as THE WORD (LOL–that last part was meant to be humorous).

Also, I wanted to point out that I believe that it’s important for you, me, and everyone not to be “black and white” regarding Deliberate Creation/Law of Attraction and anything in your life.

There’s a saying “out there” about this that has to do with a baby and bath water that I’m not comfortable with, so I’ll use my own words. What I mean by this is that sometimes we connect/resonate with some things about a theory/person/school of thought/experience/etc., but not others.

I think it’s a mistake to then throw out the entire theory/person/school of thought/experience/etc. because of a few misalignments.

As I say over and over again, take what you want and leave the rest!

I hope this is helpful.

I am tearful reading about your daughter’s classmate and am sending healing light and love to her/him and his/her family.

Namaste,

Taylor