Super-Mom of the Month, March 2012
Super-Mom, Kat Ruiz
The most difficult thing about being a mom is leaving in the mornings. I’ve struggled with this since Sebastian was a newborn. I have always felt torn between wanting to spend time with him, not missing a moment of his growth, and wanting to work. Not having family in the area, I had to put my trust in a complete stranger to be at home with my son instead of myself. In the beginning, this was very difficult for me but I didn’t have another choice. Once Sebastian turned 1 and breastfeeding become much less demanding, I found myself yearning to build my yoga teaching business. I slowly started to pick up classes, subbing here and there and then realized more than ever the impact teaching has on my students and me. I am so fulfilled in the yoga room! But I am also abundantly fulfilled being with my son. I find so much joy observing my amazing little boy explore the world. Watching his reactions and excitement to new things.
What do you do when the world pulls you in different directions? As Sebastian has grown into a 16-month old toddler and I have become comfortable with our caretaker, I finally feel at peace knowing that my son is learning and discovering new things with her. Don’t get me wrong; it is extremely hard to leave in the morning. I haven’t figured out the answer to creating a less painful departure. I just savor one more hug before I walk out the door and feel giddiness to come home to him. What I have found is the balance between spending time with my son and submerging myself in teaching. We both need to have some independence, it makes our relationship all the more special. I have found that I enjoy and savor every moment with Sebastian. I have designated every Wednesday as “mommy & Sebastian day”. Whatever I do, Sebastian is in tow and it always ends up being the best day of the week!
Kat Ruiz, New York City
Mother of Sebastian Ruiz – 16 Months